Rain on the Scarecrow

Scarecrow (John Mellencamp album)

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Saturday night we went to the John Mellencamp concert at the Chicago Theater and when he sang, “Rain on the Scarecrow”*, I remember us playing that song after my dad’s funeral in December 1993.  When the funeral ended, we drove aimlessly around the Green Bay farmland.  The snow barely covered the ground and you could see the fallow dirt.  The crops were long gone and what remained looked sad and straggly, drained of moisture and color.  It was fitting for that day.  During his entire life, my father never once mentioned my accident.  He was doggedly supportive of me; never turned down a good idea if I had a plan to go with it.  He became ill when I was only 17 , and when that happened the focus shifted to caring for him as his health and mental acuity diminished.  I wish now I had the courage to ask him about the accident, to understand his thoughts and feelings.  When I heard that song Saturday night, I remembered the aimless farmland drive as well as all the things I hadn’t had time to ask him before he died.  I wondered then if he ever wanted to talk to me about it.  Many years later, I got my answer by going to a woman who channelled guides.  Out of the blue, she told me she had a message from him and I got the answers I had been wanting.  It felt like a miracle.  When the universe has a plan for you, there is no stopping it.  Have you ever felt that?

Rain on the Scarecrow

Scarecrow on a wooden cross, blackbird in the barn

Four hundred empty acres that used to be my farm

I grew up like my daddy did, my grandpa cleared his land

When I was five, I walked a fence while grandpa held my hand

Rain on the scarecrow, blood on the land……….

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5 Comments

  1. Eva, your reasonableness deliights me. I’d like to listen to the CD again with you. What’s happened with your “fire” from that session — my sense is the reading freed you like it did me.

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    1. I don’t know how reasonable I am 🙂 Listening together would be great. We need to set-up a call! I have to find the CD. That reading was something. It was so validating that I wasn’t loony tunes for freaking out! Yours was phenomenal!!

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  2. Hey A,
    Me again. I have to listen to the Sonia cd again. That was quite a weekend… It wasn’t a lack of courage on your part. You just follow your parents lead. It’s tough to break away and question family dynamics. Especially when you are an overachiever. I always secretly envied the “bad” kids that questioned their parents and authority. Although they just played out insecurity in a different way.

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