Time-and-Space Leg-Look-Lag, or How About Some Denial?

Well, I finally did it. I actually opened and read the medical records I’d ordered about 18 months ago. I know this sounds strange. When they arrived in separate, non-descript manilla envelopes last March 2009, I quickly ripped opened one packet. Doing a quick flip through, I saw the unthinkable: My leg. I was 7 years old and the plastic surgeon took a full leg picture from various angles. While it was thankfully taken in black and white, the sight was such a shock to me that I put the package back in its envelope. Unbelieveable as it was, I had never seen a photo of my own leg. Truth be told, it looked awful and made me feel that way too. Good god that must have hurt, I thought realizing at the same time that I was starting to detach me from myself. That’s a long way of saying, I wanted to forget about the picture for a while. And so I did. It’s one of the many ways that this “project” of mine continues to surprise even me. More on what was in the two packages later.

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  1. To me, the point of this all is to learn from each other. What you say about “time healing all wounds” is so interesting because I never thought that sort of cliche was real. In my own experience, it is true but only because I opened the door to letting it happen. For many people, I think that is the hardest part. Let’s hope the motion continues and I finish the book! Thanks for your comments.

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  2. When they say, “time heals all wounds” you are the perfect example of how long the time might be. And in that time, there will be many, many baby steps and some huge leaps forward. You just won’t know which unless you’re in motion. I’m glad you’re in motion, Anne. I’m learning from you.

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  3. Good for you. I think this is a really, really healthy thing to do. I have a friend who did this after years and years of thinking about it and she thinks it was one of the most mentally satisfying things she ever did. What’s the next step for you?

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